Sunday, October 17, 2004

heyx..haiz..sianz..2dae not in rili good mood..lata still got tution..haiz...i kip wunderin y iz paper qualification so important in s'pore...i wish it wasn't important..i wish it didn't even existed...EOY went and gone but it didn't rili went smoothly...sum papers were hard & sum papers were veh difficult..wen i told mi parents about the papers r difficult tey said 'nevermind, work hard for the next paper' ....well i was rili happy to hear tis coz i tot that tey would schold me..budden i was wrng...wen mi dad came baq frm work...he didn't rili scold me but he said 'u should haf started preparing earlier so u wouldnt haf so little confidence in scoring high marks in the papers'.....well i was hurt & sad....i wanted to tell him that i haf already tried mi best but well...i tink that it's no use...haiz...haiz...& wenever i m troubled & wanna tok to mi parents, i find it difficult...duno y lehz...feel got 1 barrier blockin mi frm tellin tem mi troubles..haiz...muz b wunderin y i suddenly sae tis...coz i tink i'll xplode if i continue to bottle up mi feelings &troubles...so i decided to sae 1 of tem in mi post..hmmz..haix...well...sianz...aniwae tml got 1K bbq...lookin 4ward to it quite a lot...hehx...tink it would b fun bahxx....=) write until here ler...coz later gotta go tution...cyaz ppl...take kair.....=P

[i noe mi parents luv me alot, i oso luv tem alot...
but God..i tink u r e onli 1 that luvs me, whether i m
fat or thin, ugly or pretty, clever or stupid]

what we could have been, 17.10.04.